'Torsion' - HFSC:Portals

Hellfire Sculpting Club submission! Theme: portals! I really enjoyed this one, and made it incredibly personal by exploring the traumatic experience associated with the severe pain of a recent medical emergency.
So proud to participate in these challenges with an extremely talented and creative group of artists. Huge thanks as always to Franck and John for organizing, and if you have a minute check out @Hellfiresculptingclub or @Hellsculptclub on socials for the other members work and give them a follow for past and future challenges!

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Recently I experienced an ovarian torsion due to a large dermoid cyst that had been biding its time in the dark, un-noticed, until it finally had the weight class to suplex my poor ovary into strangling itself. The pain that followed was so agonizing I didn't know how to put it into words properly. It became abstract. I wanted to explore that profound pain and make some sense of the abstraction while I healed.
It's as if my brain short circuit, time and space around me distorted, seconds were hours, but hours were minutes. As I braced through each wave of agony spilling over my abdomen and flooding my nervous system arrhythmically, my world became small, and I, smaller. Meditative breaths drew me inwards, attempting a melody, while the outside world fell out from under me, muffling and blurring away as I sank deeper within myself. I was acutely aware of my pain, growing, my breaths, shallowing, my body, betraying. I was being choked from the inside out, helpless to fight back, floating in and out of consciousness. There was, however, an underscored contradicting tranquility, in the sense that nothing else mattered, just live, just breathe, one at a time.
Thankfully the ER team was incredible, diagnosed and into surgery within 12hours, and I have been recovering very well.
Also! Fun facts! A dermoid cyst, or a teratoma, is a mass of cells that form full teeth, hairs, eyeballs, brain matter, skin, and fat as it grows slowly over time. It is a usually benign tumor that typically is present from birth and eventually reaches a large size. Google this if you're a freak like me and want sicko inspiration, but I warned you. :) My biggest regret is not being clear enough at the time to ask for pics of the tumor (or have it for a wet specimen lmao), Cystilia was with me my whole life after all! We had a connection! But I did crack a few jokes in the operating theatre right before I went under, they must've been good ones too 'cause they did a great job putting me back together!
Anyways, lets never do that again. :')
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